Friday, April 07, 2006

~Loneliness and Emptiness~

Have you ever face the problem? You do look like you have a lot of friends, but in fact, those so-called "friends" don't really seems so close to you. Whenever you want a chat, who'll be the first person you think of? Whenever yo're in great joy, who'll be the first person you'd like to share? Here, what I mean is other than your own family members. For those who's not single anymore, you might just stop reading from here.

When you have a strong desire to go out for a walk, and here you come to a shopping mall. What you can see is the shoppers aren't alone. Not more than 5 in a group, and not less than 2 in a group. and when you look into the mirror of the boutique showcourse, you saw only yourselves. You have one-hundred-and-fifty-two contacts in your hanphone's phonebook. You have over two hundreds of contacts on your Instant Messenger list. You have taken photos with almost three hundred person in your lifetime. But when you are alone, who is/are in your mind?

At first you thought, "It's not a big deal, I can live very well by my own". In fact, you desperately wanted a friend to share all your thoughts with. Then, you starting to look for chatrooms. Looking at those strange but funny names, you told yourselve "Nah, this is not what i want". Then you try to look for a very busy job. You might know some new friends, you hoped. Then all turned into a busy life: you missed your breakfast for the first time, then second time, then third, ...... untill you end up in clinic. Okay, now you decided to let yourselve have a vacation. But what lies infront of you, you have no idea.

After the vacation, you went for a movie. Alone. In the cinema, what you got is just a pair of sore eyes. It costs you more than a movie ticket's money to buy an eyedrop. Then you're at home again. After the three hours of the incredibly long movie you felt a little tired. "Let's have a sleep!" you thought. Suddenly, a chinese idioms came across your mind.

三等人:等吃\等睡\等死.

"What to do? Life still go on."

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