Thursday, December 27, 2007

Merry Christmas!

church of our lady of gaudalupe

inner decoration of the modern designed church

thanks to ko for the lodge cake


- marshmallow with lighting candle

side dish
- imitation of Tony Roma's chicken club salad with italian dressing

main course
- home-made roasted turkey with cranberry sauce
- freshly without extra MSG pasta served with wheat spaghetti

- KING's bakery lodge cake

- fruit tea with peach and pineapple cubes

Merry Christmas all!!!!! ...... and a Happy New Year~

too sad i'm gonna leave my home tomorrow... *sob sob*

Friday, December 21, 2007

Tony Roma's

It was always a happy thing to be at home where you may always get a chance to taste all sorts of delicacies which meaning those you tried, and those you didn't without worrying who's gonna pay the bill. It is also good when you have sisters who are so caring and so generously to buy you some expensive meal! (Darn! was planning to reduce weight in this holidays but seems impossible....)

Alright, back to the topic.

Here one stall which wanted to share was the Tony Roma's
good atmosphere to have some expensive dishes isn't it?

Okay, when looking from outside I was really never expecting the food in it was so pricey! It was far more expensive than in T.G.I.F. or even in Chilis, but anyhow, since my sis was the house and we just sat still and waiting for the food to be served.

yay~ this is the menu of TR
Alright, to start with the introduction, it was like all you see is almost the same style with salads, steaks, burgers and sandwiches, even desserts and beverages.

yes, my sis, flipping through the menu

After flipping n flipping and flipping, we have finally decided to ordered some dishes which is:
1. Famous TR's Beef Ribs with coleslaw and fries,
2. Beef Sandwich with fried onion rings in it,
3. and also the Chicken Club Salads, comprises of bacons, chicken slices, vege, cheddar cheese, eggs, along with balsamic vinegerratte as dressing.

o! this is so crazily delicious beef rib
consider gigantic sandwich where the portion is fit for 6 pax

super gigantic portion of the chicken club salad with balsamic vinegerratte

Oh, the dish was so big portion where we holding our stomach when stepping out the restaurant. It was so nice where the beef ribs was the main recommendation!

O, there's a funny thing also where the waiter made a smiley when he introduce 4 kinds of sauces to us!

cute smiley made by the waiter introducing 4 sauces

Should go for a try! ^__^

Saturday, December 15, 2007


Only after joining the IECG, i realized how stupid i was to choose all 8 choices which out of my mind. it tells me how idiotic and psycho i am to choose those courses which even the minimum requirement also disqualified me since my result was that bad. sigh, wasted a chance to get what i really want. wasn't that nice to say so since i'm quite contented with what i am (a fisherman with a degree?! you must be kidding!) just i always had wonder, how will my life goes if i were in other uni?

today, few STPM holders came to the booth to ask about the marine courses. all i can do was just introduce the courses, subjects involve to them. maybe i was too detailed on the explanation, all they did was just nodded their head. didn't know whether they understand what we trying to say or not, just hopefully the marine biology in coming year will not be a most popular subject due to my hard sell on it. i can see myself on them in past years where confusion leads to choosing the most popular courses n uni, which leads to lelong by the government. FISHERY?! ha! ha! ha! i will never dream of such thing even if i were 15 years back.

thou this job is tiring, profitless, but still, it is really a fun experience where the helping hands of yours able to reach to those who're in need. wasn't so sure the information provided is useful or please forgive me if i was simply create some facts which leads to misunderstanding. just, i was trying to help after all!

Friday, December 14, 2007

A New Day Has Come

A new day...ohhhh
A new day...ohhhh

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush, now
I see a light in the sky, (oh),
It's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it feel my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun...
A new day has come

Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, now
I see a light in the sky, (oh),
It's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it feel my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun...
A new day has...

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it feel my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun...
A new day has come

Hush, now
I see a light in your eyes
All in the eyes of a boy

I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Hush, now
(A new day)
Hush, now
(A new day)

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

INdulgence and Obsession = Gaining in Weight!

Wasn't sure whether I manage to reduce my weight or to shape my body in this holidays. One bad thing living in KL, too many delicacies as temptation and seduction around. Sometimes when you think of something it is so convenience that you may get it just nearby your home. Hmm, this definitely not a good thing.

The other day paid visit to KLCC, and somehow I saw Lecka-lecka which is the first most pricy (when I was student that time) ice cream that I happened to try on. It was also the most healthy ice cream that i tried due to it's 99% fats free selling point. Don't give a damn whether it's true or not, just, the taste is very unique which i like the most. They used to have 1 stall in MidValley but somehow the stall disappear ever since i graduated from my high school. still remember last time when after school the usual place to loaf is MV where the usual dessert for my friend and I was this.

sister holding a scoop of lecka-lecka cherry and vanilla flavour in KLCC.

Thanks to our majesty ruler, Tuesday was just another holidays for all citizens in Selangor. Due to boringness, I managed to get my arse to 1U for a walk. Initial purpose was to grab some christmas gift or some nice little stuff for myself and also looking best for the home in KT, but eventually it turns out to be the walk looking for food. Heard from a friend on how nice was the cakes in Bakerzin, and how rich was the taste and texture of it. Now i got a chance to taste the Most Expensive cheesecakes I've ever tried in my life. Imagine, almost 10 bucks for a slice or cake not even 50g of it, far more expensive than Secret Recipe. Last time SR was like a luxury for me but now... hehe, sorry, this beats SR!
New York Cheese
top view of the whole slice

Wasn't it best when you are able to have such delicacies around you all the time? Hmm, please do not add on weight!!! I want to be slimmer..... T__T

Saturday, December 08, 2007

I Don't Want To

actually not to say that i try to act smart in everything i do. just that why whenever i had the better idea you all will try very hard to cover or to replace it with another better or always even with worse idea? actually is it really that i'm unworthy to give any opinion in anything?

sometimes, i don't want to act like little child. i'm neither letting go my temper. is just that why there's someone better and you still need me to do something which i think i dun know. or when you all have decided something and why on earth you all just bother to inform me and not to discuss with me? sometimes when i'm been commented as too aggressive or too talkative do you all know how hurting are the comments to me? it is not the first day you all know i've been like such.

i admit sometime i'm really playful and just give not serious impression to other but did you think about that i was actually also serious just that in a different way? i tried to be supportive and committed in everything possibly, but somehow i think there still a big gap between us. i've already out of expectation in what will i gets in return. i'm tiring in thinking and calculating. i will just let it be. whether you all will appreciate what i did or what have i sacrifices. i'm not trying to be calculative. i'm not trying to be narrow-minded. just that i beg you, try to considerate my feelings sometimes. i'm not as strong as how i look sometimes.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Bread and Olives

Farewell for a friend who really not a very long period of knowing but she's really a nicest person to get along with. Well, for a person who going to further in biomedical engineering, I really don't know what to say or what to wish, just hoping she will be better in future~

It took about 45 minutes to reach Cheras after long way from PJ.
All the way from Federal, turning into MRR2, following Jalan Kuari, climbing up the Hulu Langat Hill, and there we are~ The Lookout Point in Cheras.

Accidentally caught this on my way up the hill.

After climbing up the steepest hill, which I think most probably of 70++ degrees, we finally make it to the highest peak in KL. You will never know how nice is this place compare to the polluted city centre. This place all I can see was just 3 lonely standing cafes with some really nice ly renovated and some Balinese style of design. The front door was a reception like counter which allows visitors to settlr down while waiting to be seated.

Trust me, it is a slope more than 70 degrees!

Hmm, I wouldn't comment on it till you get there by yourself

First Night View of KL which I managed to caught nicely without a tripod

This place of interest has an observation tower which enables you to look at the beautiful scene of KL night, and be mesmerized by her beauty. Genting was also clearly seen (I know you wouldn't believe, but it's true!) from the top most of the tower. I have never imagine how Light Pollution in an urban city can really gives such beautiful scene of view with all the neon lights, it almost makes the city as bright as daytime.

Well, after satisfied from all the photo shooting, it's time to fill up all starving stomach with some delicacies. They have this delicious
Al Burj Arab Pizza and so-so Mediterranean Lamb dish which I've order. The roll of pita and lamb really looks good but in fact the taste was just so ordinary like you may get it from any mamak stall.

Nice Pizza but I hate the Olive~

Price of food is moderate in price and without any taxes, however the service of the impatient and rude employee is a consideration criteria for you to dine there. We've been chatting there till 12am which the temperature of the surrounding has decreased drastically, forcing us to leave. Anyway, this is not a bad experience for you to catch the beautiful and unpolluted corner of KL.

It's getting difficult to gather all the friends around. But this gang of friends are those who are really participating aggressively than any other. Who knows when will be the next time of gathering? For those who are going overseas, Good luck and Farewell, nothing much for you than a card I tried to hide from the beginning. Ha!

Frenz 4eva~

Eye of Oriental (Pt2)

Well, after finish the trip from CYT aquarium, we're heading to the Gurney Drive to look for hotels, however it seems that not only hotels but even apartments are almost fully booked with extraordinary expensive price. It was so disappointed as we've asked for few hotels along the way to Batu Ferringhi, and finally we found 1 at Tanjung Bungah. I still remember this was the hotel where my mom's cousin brother had his wedding dinner. All i can remember is this hotel is rather spacious with a very low rate. And the view by the sea shore is rather relaxing compared to the city view.
View from the room

The night we are totally exhausted and reaching back at my grandma's house at almost 2 in the morning. Sorry Popo, for bothering u so much at the middle of the night.
The next morning we travel again heading to the island where we plan to go clubbing on the night. The most happening bar -- Chill out next to G hotel was one of my friend's recommendation. Hmm, how should I say? Maybe I'm really those type of person who really can't enjoy in the midst of smokes of cigarettes and the bass of dance rhythms. But it surprises me where almost all the lala inside do not exceed 30 y/o. Haihz, what a world.

In the afternoon we went to temple, or TEMPLES I supposed. From the Burmese temple, to the Siamese temple, until the Malaysian Chinese Temple. All about Buddha where I was so amused by the carvings, the paintings, the statue and the holiness of a temple. Thou I'm not believers of this religion but I will still pay my utmost respect towards their traditions, their believes and also the place of their holy landing.

The Burmese Temple
The Siamese Temple

It was actually surprising that the religious temple can appear in the most beautiful form where the building itself earns enough respect from the believers. Did I missed anything bout the temples?......... Oh yes! The ultimate hilltop Kek Lok Si!

Impressive view!

It took almost 30 minutes drive from the town to the top. Again, the winding and winding exist in this part also where they fond a cute shop which sells lots of Chinese cultural items, from Prosperity-Longetivity-Happiness statue to the tiny blessed key chains. This temple is again, a historical and tourist place which earn the Penang state government a handsome sum of foreign exchange profit.

Well, I think that's almost everything I went with bunch of crazy uni's friend. Another interesting thing to share is that we managed to see Eric Tsang in one of the restaurant we went. Isn't it a coincidence that he happened to be at there? Well, nothing much bout him except he's really short and bulky than I saw on the TV screen. Haha~

Happy Holidays friends!

T.G.I.F. @Queensbay Mall

Eye of Oriental (Pt 1)

If I'm not mistaken this is what they used to call the Penang Island.
Had been lazy lately to share about the fun stuff which encounter during the Penang trip.
But anyhow, managed to drop some ATP to write on the gathering on Look Out Point. Hehe.. What a mad fella.

Ok, by departing from the rental home in Kuala Terengganu, north headed to Kota Bharu in Kelantan, reaching at Jeli, going into Perak, passing by the Temenggong Lake, finally reaching Kedah at Kupang, passing by the Hi-Tech Park in Kedah, finally reaching Kulim my grandma's house. However, this is not the final destination which we will be settle, it is the Penang Island our ultimate point of destination. Omg, it is very hard to imagine that we had crossed 5 STATES!

Not exaggerating, it's really almost the half Peninsular we went!

Hmm, nothing much on the way we went, except all the mountain path which winding here and there, make all those car sick fella felt asleep quietly and luckily they didn't vomit on the car~ phew~ after bout 4 hours drive finally we're reaching the Temenggong Lake in Perak, not very nice compared to Kenyir, but still mesmerized by its beauty.

Mommy! Look at those two kids in the car!Malaysian version of Titanic...(No hugging!)

Few photo shooting by the lake and here we go again, winding, winding road heading to Kedah..... and guess what? i saw this surprising sign along the road--->

Isn't it cute?! It stands on top of the hill where we couldn't see any way that an elephant may break through the fence and jump into the valley~! Hilarious!! Well, continue with some winding, and winding, winding, road, we have make it to the Kedah border where finally I'm in the state of my dad's home town! Excited feeling of mine because i need to direct all them to my grandma's house and finally we have already pass through the Titiwangsa Mountain Range!
After settle down at my grandma's house, we are agian, heading to the International Lantern Festival which is situated in Butterworth, and it is so exciting because we are visiting all the MOUTHLESS-CATS'-LANTERNS (which means the Hello Kitty, LOL)!
Mesmerizing entranceKitty n dunno who....
Family of Ursus Chia~

Actually the place has nothing much but a poor design of shop lots and inconveniences
transportation, not to mention the expensive fare and also the little variety of foods and beverages. Maybe it has the attraction for all those North-Malaysians but nothing much for me.
The next day was the island-visitation-day, where we were brought to island to visit some famous part of it, Bkt Bendera, the War Museum, and there is this funny clip I wanted to share
(and dunno what is wrong with blogger, it's hard to upload on to here) haha~ quite funny actually, at first I didn't want to get in, afraid that i will be stuck in the middle of it, but anyhow, it was a nice experience of crawling in and climbing out.

CYT aquarium was our next stop, From what I heard they reared a priceless competition Carp which weigh almost like an adult!
Does it look that heavy?

and few ornamental fishes which are so pricey!!

I think I have return all the ichthyology knowledge to Tuan Haji ever since I've finished the test.. ^__^

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Conclusions For 3rd Sem

Time really flies by. It was like yesterday when I still struggling for the accommodation problem at the beginning of the semester, running in and out for my course registration, busy like a bee where I was in Hell of Assignments (it's really hell lots of assignments and hell like when you need to hand in 5 in a week time).

There is some more days to go to face the final examination.
Has anyone play SIMS2: University before? My life in uni is just like theirs in the virtual world. Or maybe it would be better to say theirs are like ours. Assignments, tests, evaluations, and don't what did you absorbed from all the lectures you attended. Hmm, what good does it make? I bet is nothing. I always wonder what if we're just like the characters inside where we also manipulated by some force? Hmm.. sounds creepy right?

Looking back after been here for 3 semesters, suddenly I felt a little bit of loses. In this semester just a little bit of argument with friends, moving out was just another remarkable action which I just couldn't tell whether it's still a smart choice to call with. Getting to know my dad's hometown (more precisely) thoroughly and deeply was just another remarkable action that I did in this holidays. Wasn't it a great thing to know some place which you felt belong to happily and with also the exploration by your own selves? Being questioned by all seniors in the family when will I be graduate, or when will I coming out to earn, I was totally speechless. It is important that to allow me to finish my 3-Years-Hooneymoon happily and unregrettably so that I will always have a pleasant memory of the Uni's Life ever after.

Saw a lot of things, shared a lot of things, ate a lot of things, experienced a lot of things.
Learned more, Taught more, Sacrificed more, Spending more.

That is my 3rd semester of the uni life. Getting along well doesn't means that you can live well with that person. This is so true. No hard feeling for all those who's looking at this. Maybe it's my range of tolerance is narrower than anyone else. They usually easily stick together and shared lots of fun stuff together but without my presence. Hmm.. Not planning to give that any damn.

It was fun to be in Penang. Seriously. It was fun too to have a bunch of friends like you. Sincerely.

Friday, November 16, 2007

True Color

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage,
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it
And the darkness, inside you
Makes you feel so small

But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours,
True colours, are beautiful ooh like a rainbow.

Show me a smile,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear,
Just call me up,
cause you know I'll be there

And see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
your true colours,
True colours are beautiful,
Ooh Like a rainbow

Such sad eyes,
Take courage now,

When this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Just show your true colours
True colours, true colours

Are shining through
I see your true colours
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid, just let them show
Your true colours, true colours
True colours are beautiful,
So beautiful, like a rainbow

BERSIH -- is this what we are looking for?

Read this
Before that please refer to this

I don't know.
Should such action to be taken or just people blindly follow what majority said it was suppose to be? We know what we want, it's correct, shouldn't we also consider how was the way we redeem what we are after? Wasn't it appropriate to have some actions to be carried out in a peaceful and the more rational mean?

I don't know.
Why the gov claims that the rally was a conspiracy since the original means of the rally was demanding just a fair and transparent election? And why the opposition has to carry out in such an aggressive mean and act when the thing might be done in more peaceful way? Where this may not properly or positively impressed others? See this and tell me whether is a rational acts?

Reformasi was clearly heard from the shouting of Mr. A's supporters. I don't know. I really don't know. Is it good for us to be in such situation anymore?

Thursday, November 15, 2007


I hate hot weather.
Nor the cold. Best is the windy type.
When you wake up, the weather is still like the 8 in the morning.
But somehow when you look at the clock, it's almost 1.
Omg, how am I suppose to finish my 100 pages thick of my Ichthyology lecture notes then?!

Something that I would like to share has nothing to do with the Monsoon.

Well, anyway, there is something I hate most happened these few days.
It was suppose to be a trip to the Underwater World in Langkawi which I really look forward to.
And, it was suppose to be organized and followed up by some so-call Representatives in the course, however, there is not even wind blowing from them. I wonder why The Great Ethnic like them like to do everything in the very last seconds. From the little thing like the homeworks of one's own to the great thing which affects the whole nations like the community policies, also will be procrastinate till the very last minutes. And somehow, last minute of launching doesn't shows how they improve or well planned, not to mention how great was their plan and decision. It was really frustrating when such a great plan and beneficial activities has been blown off just because of some minor silly action or decisions. Wasn't it an unfortunate thing to mention? When it's canceled, not even a rational excuse was given to those heart-breaking follower was just "under some unavoidable circumstances" the plan was called off.

It is not that I want to criticize who and what, Wasn't it a cruel thing when you give hope to someone and take it away without some reasonable explanation? Would it be fair for them? Or maybe the word "fair" has been deleted by your ancestors when the The Constitution was signed? When will you all looking up to others nation who really are greater than you all, and when will you all humbly to learn from them without neglect and critics?

I'm not to say that MINE was great and greatest.
But anyhow, if there is no changes to be done, I wonder how are we going to assure that our coming generation have a suitable place to live in in the future?
Do not blame us when all of the people (I mean those productive manpower) migrated and none of them looking back on you.

Please, at least do something.

Monday, November 12, 2007

C'est La Vie

Ne laisse pas le temps,te décevoir...
....ll ne peut être conquis...
Dans la tristesse, dans la douleur...
Aujourd'hui, demain...
Au fil du temps... Le temps... C'est La Vie...

Any French Expert here translate for me?



Do not let time disappoint you ...
.... It can be conquered ...
In sadness, in pain ...
Today, tomorrow ...
Over time ... The time ... This is Life ...

Sunday, November 04, 2007


What’s your name?
Do you live around here?
Don’t I know your face?
You say I’ve been a stranger
For too long
I didn’t even notice I was gone
And I wanna come back home

Show me the way to make a start
Show me the road back to your heart
And I’ve found the only truth that I need to know
There’s a million places I can go
But without you it ain’t home
It ain’t home

Please say…
What I need to hear you say
Say I’m thoughtless and foolish
But say, it’s not too late
Now I don’t know exactly
Where we go from here
But trying is the only way to know
And I wanna come back home

Show me the way to make a start
Show me the road back to your heart
And I’ve found the only truth that I need to know
There’s a million places I can go
But without you it ain’t

It ain’t hopeless,
Please believe me
Don’t give up
Cos we’re half way there
We’re at the crossroads
In the middle
Between hope
And between despair
All I need is
Some direction
Let me know you’ll wait for me
Where you are
Is where I’ll be

Show me the way to make a start, oh
Show me the road back to your heart
And I’ve found the only truth that I need to know
There’s a million places I can go
But without you it ain’t

Show me the way to make a start
Show me the road back to your heart
And I’ve found the only truth that I need to know
There’s a million places I can go
But without you it ain’t home

It ain’t home

Wednesday, October 31, 2007


Psalm 13

my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5 But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

6 I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Horoscope -- after bored from study...

TAURUS - The Tramp (what? Tramp? Taurus is definitely not one of those...)

Aggressive. (I think I can be counted as one, hehe..)

Loves being in long relationships. (What is good being in a short and uncertain relationship la? Waste your life and money nia...)

Likes to give a goodfight for what they want.(Then you will appreciate what you have~ )

Extremely outgoing. (Definitely not an introversion type of me)

Loves to help people in times of need. (My friends: Yaya, by commenting and criticizing a lot)

Good kisser. (Unknown, yet to give out my first kiss)

Good personality. (If counted overall.. then is damn good lo...)

Stubborn. (Bull mah, sure a bit stubborn as natural characteristic de mah)

A caring person. (Yes, care for those I regard as worthy to..)

One of a kind. (Kinda.....)

Not one to mess with. (Ha-ha, never offend me or you will be sorry for that)

Are the most attractive people on earth! (YOU BET!!)

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Last Kiss

Oh where, oh where
can my baby be
The Lord took her
away from me.
She's gone to heaven
so I've got to be good,
so I can see my baby
when I leave this world.

We were out on a date
in my daddy's car,
we hadn't driven very far.
There in the road,
straight ahead,
a car was stalled,
the engine was dead.
I couldn't stop,
so I swerved to the right.
I'll never forget
the sound that night--
the screamin tires,
the bustin glass,
the painful scream
that I heard last.

Oh where, oh where
can my baby be?
The Lord took her
away from me.
She's gone to heaven
so I've got to be good,
so I can see my baby
when I leave this world.

When I woke up,
the rain was pourin down.
There were people
standin all around.
Somethin warm
flowin through my eyes,
but somehow I found
my baby that night.
I lifted her head,
she looked at me and said,
"Hold me darlin just a little while."
I held her close,
I kissed her--our last kiss.
I'd found the love
that I knew I had missed.
Well now she's gone,
even though I hold her tight.
I lost my love,
my life that night.

Oh where, oh where
can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me.
She's gone to heaven
so I've got to be good,
so I can see my baby
when I leave this world.

Friday, October 19, 2007


It always give me an inexplicable touchy feeling whenever I get a chance to have a look on the sunrise. It doesn't matter by the beach, or in the dusty city, or when you're in such a wonderful mood to kick off your day. I've been at home for a week's time, which all i did was just sizing up my appetite. I have learned some good news and some very bad news during my return this time.

My mom has the operation on her toe. I was not informed. I was so pissed off when I got to know this. What kind of family shall it be when you do not bothered to inform the people which are theoretically closer in the sense of blood-bond? The disappointment wasn't come from the suffer and pain of my mother, but the pain in deepest place in my heart that I wasn't informed on such important and serious matter. I felt that I'm no longer a close part in the family in which I was away when my mother is in deep pain of her loss. Even my siblings couldn't be bothered to pick up the phone and rang me about this "small matter". Do you know that this is just make me to be such ignorant in people's eyes? Even me myself could not let go where I wasn't around my mother's side when she is in such pain. I'm speechless when my mother say:"what will do if I did informed you?You won't be possibly just rushed back to home!" No!! Ma~!! You're mistaken. Of course I will!! How many mother on earth do I have in my lifelong? It's just you! How could possibly you have said this to a son who is really concern bout you?!

This is the very sad news I've got from my return this time. Just wish that it won't be anything happened when I get back next time.

After a week of degeneracy, I've finally got my backside back to this little-isolated-country-sided-uncivilized area. I've regret for coming back so soon. This makes me feels bad. Have been disconnected from the happenings here for a week, wonder if there is anything that I can be updated. In fact, those who are closer gets closer, and those who are not, gets closer too. Sometimes it's just bothersome that when a new member is trying to mix around well (from what he thinks) with those who are initially bonded strongly. I don't know. Maybe i'm not the person who can be a easy-to-get-along-in-short-period. I just don't like it when it seems like something belongs to you is slowly being ripped of from your ownership. Well, somehow I realized there is such miscommunication problems occurred between friends. It is a very complicated problem which require some attention. This is also the problem which I wasn't aware of from the beginning of this life. Maybe more initiation has to made in future time. More dialogs have to be carry out. May be it's just like a friends said, True-or-Dare might be the necessary activity to be holding out.

Got chances to take some nice pics when flies all the way back here, it's just nice.
The Early Morning of LCCT
Beautiful sunrise from the upper air (Never! I mean NEVER! grab othe right hand side seat when you fly back from LCCT, unless you want to be blinded)

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Indulgence or obsessions?

Actually I like ice-cream very much. But not till this level of indulgence. This is too horrible and unacceptable for me. In fact, I would risk my life and my future if someone could pay for the cost, haha!

Important facts for this LUXURIOUS and HILARIOUS event:
1. Not on Saturday, Sunday and Public Holidays
2. Only at the at Häagen-Dazs Bangsar Village II.
3. Wastages are counted by scoops.
4. Different pricing after 3p.m. which will be RM39.90.
5. Prepare hot-bater bag to cover up your teeth.
6. Please bring along Sensodyne in case needed as advertised (no pain during ice-cream eating :))
7. Remember to consume as much as you can~ to make your RM 33.90 worthy~

haha! hilarious events and infos.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Civilized Zone

Will be back to my sweet home in no time. It won't be an exaggerate saying that my home is situated in a civilized zone which is much better than the present place that I'm in now. It doesn't means that I miss those polluted air, unsilencable noises, never dim neon light. Just that it anyhow feels good to be at a place you know which is not a temporary but the permanent. No matter how luxurious house you rented at outside is still the temporary place compare to the sweet home.

Thou this is the second post of mine about my home (duh, why post so much bout your tiny home), but still the feeling awaits to go home is the best amongst all.

11 hours more to be at home.

Mommy, I want vinegar pork leg~

Friday, October 05, 2007

Alone In the Dark

The weather this day long is just a perfect weather for me. I like cloudy day. It will be much better comparing with the scorching sunny day. A trip to the early fish market was scheduled and carried out as it was planned.

Sometimes I really do not understand myself.
I've been working more times harder than I was for the previous paper but I just couldn't get what I wanted to get. It has been playing in my mind for more than thousands times that asking me not to step myself into the science field, especially the biology terms. Once again, I'm destined to take up those I wish myself has not been taking. It was a shameful thing, when you keep falling down in front of those you want to show how good you are to. This is really not a great thing to do. The feeling is just sux. I wouldn't say I'm really that good enough to be the top among the rest. It's all about my ego and dignity.

Maybe it's the weather which makes my shittest feeling coming out from the deep inside. See, weather-blaming again. This is really a good day for a person who wakes up and feel like doing nothing especially when he has the handful of things awaits to be done. Isn't it sad? I would rather call myself the reluctant and the ignorant. Where has the ambitious aiming for the 1st class holder myself gone? This is just not so like me. I could have just pass this on just to have my degree with me no matter what class will I get for it. Was I expecting too much? Or maybe i should wake up from my dream realizing that I do not belong to the first class person?

Well, thanks to God for letting all the test 2 and 3 ended this week. I will be able to be back home carrying all my fishes with me! Ya, true, Feli, I hate Ichthyo too.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Campus Election

It was not a healthy way to have such election which the transparency level is equal to opaque.

1st, the candidates. All candidates are those-who-they-call-themselves-the-chosen, which in another word was those ex-MPP (Student Representative Councils) chose. Even in a such small places like here, we do not have much liberality to voice out what we really hope for. Which means we are not be able to determine how our future will look like. For the Student's Affair Department, it is best for You Students to be as tame as the pet where they are best to manipulate with. Incident like in UPM will never ever happened here, as the authorities has 101% control over the student affair. However, a little bit of rejoices is where the study atmosphere over here does not ruined by the opposition power like other varsity did.

2nd, the competition atmosphere.Why on earth is the wasting of almost 3000 thousands pieces of papers for the campaign posters while it is enough for the students to study for at least a year?! It is pointless to make the campaign as peaceful as they want while all the rubbish are flying around the campus like nobody business. Quoted from the authority, ".......A peaceful campaign has been held leading to the election day. Posters of the candidates can be seen everywhere in campus....". It is definitely peaceful. There is no voice of opposition towards the candidates, nor even the speech from the candidates themselves. Neither do the candidates know their opponents are, where the election was really like the election in a certain club which is only difference where they get the agreement from majority of the students. Well, what is the point for election then? To emphasize on your choosing of the students' representatives is the correct choice? Hmm, I wonder how will that be.

Just got the news of the results. It was 2 seats for Chinese. First time in the history I think. It is so surprise that the 2 popular Indian candidates (and the only 2) lost in the voting. KBB sure will be planning for another riot soon. Hope it will be fast!

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Hippocratic Oath

Aussie docs call for rewards after MAS incident

MELBOURNE: An Australian doctor left her family to attend to three sick passengers on a Malaysia Airlines (MAS) flight to Kuala Lumpur.

As a reward, she wanted an upgrade but MAS said no. And Dr Matilda Metledge has shot off a bill to MAS for services rendered.

Her actions have now sparked a debate over whether doctors should be rewarded for providing services during flights.

The Australian Doctor magazine reported that Dr Metledge had to leave her young family to attend to an elderly man and a woman who were vomiting, as well as another who was causing a disturbance, on her flight.

After being given toiletries and pyjamas for her services, Dr Metledge asked for an upgrade but was refused.

The Australian Medical Association (AMA) is asking international airlines to provide incentives for doctors whose travels are ruined by treating fellow passengers.

AMA public health committee chairman Assoc Prof John Gullotta told the Herald Sun newspaper he also had three recent flights ruined because he had to treat passengers, and felt airlines were taking doctors for granted.

It is a bit unfair to expect doctors trying to get away on holiday to be always available and render assistance,” he was quoted as saying.

“Obviously we have to do that as part of our Hippocratic Oath and sense of well being, but the airlines have to take a bit more responsibility.

“On most flights, you are going to have at least one doctor there. So by having an incentive upfront and saying that if you want to be on call, you can have an upgrade or be paid for the time you are on call, every one else can relax.”

AMA suggested airlines adopt a process where doctors could declare themselves when buying a ticket and state whether they would like to be on call or not.

But Medical Error Action Group spokesman Lorraine Long told the newspaper that treating sick people was a doctor’s obligation, not something to do for a reward.

“If you are a doctor travelling on a plane and you help someone, isn’t a ‘Thank you’ sufficient?” she said.

MAS officials could not be reached for comment. – Bernama

Wow! That is what a DOCTOR called... pathetic!

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Moonlight Shadow

Verse 1

The last that ever she saw him, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
He passed on worried and warning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Lost in a river last Saturday night, far away on the other side,
he was caught in the middle of a desperate fight, and she couldn't find how to push through.

Verse 2

The trees that whisper in the evening, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Sing a song of sorrow and grieving, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun, far away on the other side,
He was shot six times by a man on the run, and she couldn't find how to push through.


I'll stay, I'll pray, I'll see you in heaven far away,
I'll stay, I'll pray, I'll see you in heaven one day.

Verse 3

Four a.m. in the morning, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
I watched your vision forming, carried away by a moonlight shadow,
Star was glowing in a silvery night, far away on the other side,
Will you come to talk to me this night, but she couldn't find how to push through.


I'll stay, I'll pray, I'll see you in heaven far away,
I'll stay, I'll pray, I'll see you in heaven one day.

Friday, September 28, 2007


Suffer from the waiting for 3 papers in 2 days time!
That feels so much hatred for the waiting of such unorganized schedule by those who called themselves the higher educator. I wonder how they get their beef eater with such ORGANIZE planning.

But anyhow, feel lazy to look at all the books and stuff. Maybe will do it in the midnight I think.
That earns me some time surfing through some blogs, reading some articles which is really weird and funny. They seems like enjoying their life much, but I'm the only one who will be spending time to pitty myself over this ugly place. Using my time on some stupid stuff (like I will still remember what the heck is Lutjanidae when I go out to work, not like I will be seeing Elasmobranchii for the rest of my life), spending my money simply (which I can see I will be paying back very hard for the loan T_T), totally could not imagine how my life will be in the future.

Actually, when looking at others happiness, when comparing their happiness to mine, it is like the heaven and earth differenced. I do not get along well with the people around me, not even finding a friend who can always be the listener. I miss my home. Why a big guy like such so easily to get homesick?! There will be no reason for a person to be homesick right? After experiencing all the conflicts, aware myself of all the contradictions, suddenly I feel what a loser I am.

In uni here, being a friend to a person doesn't mean you are truly a friend to them. This is so solid real. They may want to be friend with you because of some benefits that they may gain from you. They are like the monster who will leech your life and all your brain juices and make them as the nutrient for them to grow much better. Horrible right? But this is real. Once they found out that you are worthless to them they will just dump you as dumping a rubbish, despite what you did for them. Or after your brain juice and all the blood of yours went dry, it is the time you will be extincted, when you will be eliminated and expelled.

Horrible right?

Tuesday, September 25, 2007


This is such amazing term in describing the relationship have I learned ever since I am here.
For University Use.
Is it possible to have another half of you just for this period?
Will you be truly and sincere to your friends when you know your friendship wouldn't last long?
This surely be the sad thing. As far in my thoughts, friendship will never exert any pressure on to us, unless there is emergency cases happened. Friendship will never burden us, or makes us feel breathing difficulties.

But what I seen from a friend recently, it is not so.
He really did sacrifices a lot for his so call friends while the friends of him is just like taking his contribution for granted. None of them seems to appreciate what he did.

Anyhow, such relationship will not last long.
For any relationship which is not contributed by both party or maybe more, such linkage will be easily overcome by anything.
That's the very solid true facts that I have learned in here.

Other than the very pure friendship, the other intimidated relationship also like such.
Maybe a stable but dull partner will not excite your life to any extend, but anyhow he or she will also give you the warmest hug or place to hang on when you are really out of hope.
Excitement doesn't seems to come from uncertainty.
Maybe I'm the man of control desire.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Felt leftout

Tends to listen back to some really old songs that I really like most in the past.
When listening to this song, a lot of lagged appearance of some memories keep flashing by.
Those I chose to forget.
Those i chose to remember but somehow I forgotten.
But when listen back to those significant song which symbolizes some period of time in your life, truly speaking, it is fun.

Thou sometimes when the song you heard even on the street, or accidentally heard from any source, which will give your heart a minor electric shock. The same old tune and rhythm that rush into your brain, stimulates those illustration which you have long buried in the deepest of your thoughts. Maybe the images that appeared will not be the happy thing, or maybe the saddest thing you have been through, but still, it is the remarkable period in your life.

That's the magic of sound or so call music.
Touching lyric that you heard during the situation is always a greatest impact onto your thoughts.
The lyric that keep repeating in your mind, regardless how many time you heard, it is still the same old nice song that you like.
I will never forget those song really signify the period. During my working time, my study period, song before the important days, memory of a friend, songs at the farewell, song in the lonely time, song which I will be listening whenever you need comfort when I find no one is there for me.

Will I get bored to those? Sometime I wonder.
Maybe. Maybe till I find the more special moment which will have me to let go of all this.

High - Lighthouse Family

When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
When we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible
is easy when we got each other
One day 'we're gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
when we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high, high, high, high, high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
when we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Actually... In Fact...

Sometimes I ask myself, why I can't be as close to you all as you all did among self?
Myself will answer: Maybe they don't really want to be close to you.

Sometimes I will think: Am I that hard to get along with, or when I'm not around, people around me will gain more laughters and fun?
Myself will just make a place to fit in the hole: You are who you are and they may not need you to be around to move on.

Sometimes i will have myself to think again twice, should I really be initiated enough to make them PRETENDING to be close to me? Should I beg for their caring and concern on me?
Myself will just ask me: Don't you have enough from your family? Or don't you love yourself anymore? If you do, why should you really care what they did to you?

But, I thought they were my best friends?
Yes, but not when you are in desperate situation.
But, I thought i can really share things with them?
Yes, but not all tings that can be shared. Sometimes you need to keep some for yourself.
But, I thought they are the place that I should turn to whenever whatever?
Yes, but you FOOL! You can't be always depending on them! You need to be INDEPENDENCE!

But.. But..
No more but. Actually why do you care so much on what they think?
Or what they did without you?
Or somehow they really ignore you purposely?

What a lonely and sad night.

They always do something nice without you.

Your heart couldn't hurt much for their doings and sayings.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Rise - ASEAN Theme Song

There is a voice within my mind
singing the songs of distant times
Speaking the thoughts from lost horizons.

Music and words that must be signs
Shaping the facets that define
How we have come to be the present

Though we're from ten different lands
Bound by shores of common sand
Singing out as one
Let's stand
The world is in our hands

No matter where we're from
If we could sing one song
Dreams that are yours and mine
They will be realized.

Trusting the love we feel
Trust in the love that's real
Children unite
People of ASEAN
Rise !

Chapters unfolding from the past
Speaking on wisdom to my heart
Lessons to learn from our ancestors

Pushing horizons let's have faith
Our differences we will embrace
Shaping as one our common future
Our future.

Friday, August 17, 2007


Different places have different type of air.
What I mean here was the taste, the smell, and the feeling or touch of the air.
Even the air at home doesn't smell the same at the other place.
It would be better if sometimes really go out for a walk.
Without thinking anything. Without having anything to burden you.

Back at home is just another happy thing to be cheer about.
I've been leaving home for more than a month, as the feeling to go home was deeper than the sea.
It's good to be home.

I just had my another briefing of the field trip for Ichthyology.
I thought i will have enough for it, however, we are required to have a look on fishes again.
I was desperately to have field trip for the last semester. But there were none. Somehow when I do not wish for it, it comes.

Somehow, when I keep thinking that i will be happy staying at home for 2D1N, without cooking, without rushing to church, without the scorching hot weather, I have my own private space (do i have one in my rented house now?), I can even lie down and doing nothing, no need to worry bout laundry, no need to worry bout the house chores, no need to stay at home facing 4 walls more than 16 hrs a day.
This is what you call as happiness.

All I can say --
Home Sweet Home!

Thursday, August 16, 2007


I've never be such desperately to be back at home.
In my past life as a fulltime students, all i wanted was just outside and away from my home.
My parents usually works in a long hour a day, which means that we have a little time to spend together. Even thou when they are free, they will have their own entertainment which are tagged "only papa and mama can go". This mean, interaction between our family member doesn't have much.

Well, it doesn't mean that i am expecting the WARM family which is you are taken care of your parents 24-7 or you are be brought no matter where they go. Well, i admit that sometimes i DO envy those child who being pampered so much. However, i won't want to be as one.

It is very strange. As people grows, they tend to get more attention. No matter from friend or from family, even strangers. Please don't tell me you don't. This is the time where you actually live as nice as you could however you do not really feel the warmth from anyone around you. This is why you will need a home.

No matter how those people at home care for you recklessly, or how they really ignore you, sometimes you just tends to bond with them, as if when the world meets his end you will want to be with them for the last few minutes of yours. When at outside, no matter how hard you be, there will always be certain level of ignorance where the people may not as nice as you think they are. No matter how close you claim you are to them, there will always be certain level of isolation.

No man is an island, go back to your home no matter how sad or frustrated is the memory of your home bring to you.